Monday, 13 February 2012
'Just a Mum'?
What is it about the role of Mothers in our society? I swing from feeling like I am doing the most important job in the world, to feeling like I am missing out on some part of my life. I need to say at the outset here, that I absolutely LOVE and adore all three of my children. They are truly precious to me. I am so very grateful to be their mother, and to have been able to enjoy their early years without having to dash off to work.
I have been an At Home Mother (AHM) for a decade now. My daughter turned ten last month. And I fully realised that I had been AHMing for that long. The longest I have ever held any 'job'. And in the last year or so I have started to feel that I need something else too. Something to sing to me. Not just being mummy, which although I love it, is only one facet of me.
I have other gifts to bring to the world. Surely? Don't I? They just feel swamped by a mountain of laundry, a lake of washing up, school letters & requests, homework, and that's on top of the really important job of cuddles & listening.
Right now, I can feel like 'I' is emerging, painfully slowly, blinking into the light of expanding awareness. I know that I can be more than 'just a mum'. I can be so very much more & brilliant. Not in a Super-mum nonsense sort of way, trying to be all things to all people & racing myself into a breakdown. But in an expansive, authentic whole of joyous living. I know I can. I know I can. I know I can.